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| -= IM MOVING =- |
| 09.09.08 (11:33 pm) [edit] |
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NO NO not moving physically..
i'd like to announce that im moving blog
in fact im moving already. im leaving my 1st phase of life here.
and im now starting a new one at
www.truewishlist.blogspot.com
please comeby and visit me like usual.nuthin much change...only me and my tots..
growing to be a better person i guess..
but i dunno..u judge...
i'll see u at my new blog!!!
CIAO~!
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| -= HE'S SUCH A BITCH FOR GOD'S SAKE!!! =- |
| 05.10.08 (9:20 pm) [edit] |
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Dear bloggy,
im soooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooo damn mad with Ben now. owh ladies and gentlemen i would like u introduce u ppl to my cow president of debate club, Ahmad Shabeer or known as (gayishly) Ben. y the hell want to be call dat neways??
ok first of all that makes me shock...like REALLY shock here is dat he told abg bob dat i am jealous of him bcoz he's dating his gf fera. WHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAATTTTTT TT THE FREAKIN FUDGE!!!!?????? GOD! In the name of Allah i never ever ever ever felt dat way..not towards him..not towards his gf. NEVER. N . E . V . E . R .
OMG! im sooo freakin mad rite now. hello he was the one who flirted wit me. he was the one who go gaga over me. he was the one who gets all jumpy n gedik when he sees me. he was trying to be my "bf" from the start. ok now lets talk about the truth and nothing but the truth from my side.
OK fine i admit i did flirted wit him before. like a week something like that. he was ALL over me. he thinks dat i was the coolest person on earth n said how he think he's more suitable wit older women then the babies (yeah rite). no no no before u even go there...NO im not jealous. gosh. im so mad.uurggghhh!!!
ladies and gentlemen. i flirted with everybody. Like EVERYONE. i, siti suhaila kamaruddin, never have any romantic feelings or even a bit of likeness in ben or ahmad shabeer. puhleezzz...i have a lot of better choices of being jeles to..i have special someone who studied overseas whos totally crazy bout me, working ppl...owh i mean PREFESSIONAL WORKING PEOPLE, Doctors,..a lot more cooler and more financially and emotionally stable people dats in my list to go jealous of. n more over...he's NOT EVEN IN MY LIST! he's spreading words, rumours to everyone saying i go crazy over him coz he got a girl. BULL SHIT. God why the heck did he said dat??? maybe he's d one whos jealous of me. he's trying to get me back bcoz i scolded him in front of everybody coz he's not doin his work properly. hello mr ben...being a president is NADA!NOTHING! ur juz a puppet for Gods sake. we. the captains r the one who did all the work around ere. u dont do nething! before this..i let every minor errors flow..coz i know ur a freakin junior n that u have lotsa things to learn.this is like ur first big event n im being a senior trying to help u out.but now ben..its getting personal.very personal.i will work wit u in the future for the sake of my debaters...but not bcoz of u. them choosing u as the president is TOTALLY WRONG.sorry for being too straight forward..before this i dont like u..n rite now..i dunno wuts the word..owh yeah..i HATE u FREAKIN ASS!
FELLOW READERS... and also if la shabeer actually reads this. no offend, its juz normal..i mean everybody is ccompulsary to feel like killing u bcoz hmm lets see..owh yeah bcoz ur such a BITCH! gayishly bicthing about people. if u keep it up my dear ben.. ur dead.
GOD IM SO MAD!URGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
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| -= suck!!! =- |
| 05.06.08 (11:32 pm) [edit] |
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dear bloggy,
im at the library now juz fin my zohor prayers. lepaking with the other BM debaters. they have eco papers tomorow. y am i wit them?teaching?? of coz not...
ahahhaa...im using bobop's lappy. gotta blurt everything out. like immediately.
ok i had my OB paper this morning. hows it?? was suck!!! :sobs:
well two days ago i went to see the carry marks and then my carry mark was like a disaster. i forgot to submit my individual assignment due to some hectic stuff. (juggling paperwork n tests n trips n quizes sure didnt get me thingking straight) so then again i didnt submit, which means i got 0.
so dat already upsets me..n then today the questions was super hard. i was staring for like an hour. i go blank. thank god i manage to scribble my answers an hour and a half after that. i barely get to the last question when those lecturers picked up my paper. urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....!!!!
2 days to come wud be my operation management paper. wish me luck n yes..plz pray for me. another one last paper n yet im torn apart. im not sure if i can hold on.well bloggy, i gtg...my frens has started their study..i should go n join up.thnx bloggy...i feel relief...a bit. =)
ciao!
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| -= taking a break =- |
| 05.05.08 (1:30 am) [edit] |
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from my studies of coz...
hehe dear bloggy..
im sorry i neglected u these few weeks. u'r so nice dat u'r always there for me whenever i wanna blurt stuff out. its so great havin u.
talkin to syahrul bout me being unique n different are my best ticket to get ppl noticing. n he doesnt agrees. hahaha... :rolls eyes:
neways i juz had a walk outside (m in the libry) went to get some lunch when i only have 6 bucks cash in hand n like 14 bucks in the bank. allowance's a bit late this month (well im used to it since the money r wired all the way from russia n gotta let it float for about 3 weeks b4 it gets into my account) :rolls eyes: so neways..im sweating n i stink!
so wut shall i write about today...my stinkiness??? nah..i'll pass...my lunch??too boring...my papers???!!! u must b kidding me! my angerness these few days??? u dun want me to get even angrier...so lets talk bout how men shud treat women...shall we?
guys Play one of the songs that would make any woman weep like the little girl she once was (but in a good way). A brief list includes, but certainly isn't limited, to:
"You & Me" by Lifehouse
Anything by Frank Sinatra
Any rendition of "Everything I Do, I Do it for You"
"Collide" by Howie Day
"Out Of My League" by Steven Speaks
And MOST IMPORTANTLY "Question" by the Old 97's (if you propose to a girl with this song, she is putty in your hands).
("Putty in your hands" is not meant to promote "using women" in any way. This group does not encourage guys to be polite in order to get her into bed.)
LOOK IN HER EYES, NOT AT HER CHEST!!!!!
geez why do guys always like to do dat?? i mean ok we know they are nice..n sexy n unbelievably magnificent creation of God :rolls eyes: but plz..we need some respect..we need LOADS of respect from u guys.
you know one thing dat i really want them guys to notice?? dat we'r beautiful. ok fine so they said they know dat we are...but they still calls us "hot", "pretty", "cute"..we'r tired of it. call us beautiful for once.its like this..cute isnt dat bad...but hot is juz as if ur lookin at something else...hot is wrong (unless ur in this kinky mode wit her or something lol )but guys...step "pretty" up for something like beautiful, gorgeous, stunning, captivating..u know around those area..
my most fave part is when the guy offers his jacket or sweatshirt. even better if its his varsity team jacket...WIT his NAME on it! i'v crossed azhar's senior's frenster profile one time. he was a basketball alrite. n he played ball for his uni. it was somewhere in aussie. he have his jersey written his name n his girl. aint it cute. so whenever there's a play off..he wores it proudly. *dreaming* aint it sweet?? :drool: ok2 snap..i mean u dun have to actually combine our name together (if u decide to do so plz proceed) but let us wear ur jacket..more better let us keep it n make it ours...u go n ask another one from ur team or buy another.huhu
If you're trying to get more than friendship out of the relationship, take it slow and never rush her. i have lotsa fans (HAHAHAHA) ok fine..those who adores me. i really hope that they know my situation. i like to take it slow. not juz jump straight n ask me to be ur girl. ok its a heroic yet gentlemen way of approaching, i get it. but have u people EVER think dat i might freaked out n think ur juz rushing things up? theres lotsa things u gotta learn bout girls..LOADS. even three years wont confirm dat u know her in and out *winks*
Guys - always offer to pay for the date. No matter how expensive it gets, especially if YOU asked HER on the date. [if she is willing to pay now and again, don't let your "man pride" get in the way of her wanting to give back to you. she should understand money can be tight - especially when you're always buying]
When walking on the sidewalk, always walk on the outside near traffic. (So everyone has a different opinion for how this started. For some, it's because of the human waste that was getting thrown out the windows when this was happening a century ago. The woman walked under the overhangings extending from the buildings with the guy in the open to take the mess if need be. Others say it's from the guy's scabbard/sword being on his left with the woman walking on the right. As for today, it's the traffic and puddles and what-not. Whatever it is. It's just a courtesy thing, if it seems necessary.)not dat we women wants u guys to sacrifice urself or wut..juz its a bit of those security thing. those "i love her more then mine" thing to do.
Always be honest with her. No woman wants or likes a dishonest man. If you can't be honest with her, she can't trust you, and shows you don't trust her enough to be honest. Trust, honesty and integrity are just as an integral part of a relationship and just as important as love
why m i writing this again??ahahaha...ea dats rite...i m sooooooooooooooooo stressed out. didnt get to read thru.lotsa distraction..n the book....its booooooooring! y do we want to learn bout organizational behavior again?ngaaaa
ciao ppl. till next post!
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| -= back to basic =- |
| 04.15.08 (5:59 am) [edit] |
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"I like you..but sometimes I really hated u”
“stuck up”
Dats a few of the comment I get when I forwarded this one Q n A to my frens. It does hurt..i admit it but somehow im glad I asked. These ppl I really call frens since they are sincere on wat they feel..and dis time its bout me. I know sometimes I am a bit bitchy. It happens every now and then, I admit again dat its not a gud sight..for a woman (if I can be consider as one)
I think bout ppl..alot. how they act, how they behave, wut ppl like, wut ppl dislike. But wut they think bout me sometimes I dun even give a damn. I mean my dear fren nurul had once told me.. a looser always try to satisfy everybody. So based on dat, I try to be ignorant on few things.. feelings especially. Before this, I always listen to everybody’s thoughts. Reason??to be fair.or dats wut I define it. I tend to think a lot..(trust me when I said a lot..its A LOT) on wut ppl think bout me. M I nice? M I presentable? M I pretty in this dress? Shud I put my hands sideways or cross it while standing? Which beg goes wit wut so ppl wont say I dun have any fashion sense.. do I help my frens enough? Are my kids ok?? Do they need more training?? Wut if they get stuck in the middle of their speech..is dat my fault? Do I suppose to do something? Questions questions questions … all questions but theres no answers.
I am fussy. Very fussy. Azhar said im stubborn. Nuar said im workaholic. Abg uccie said im fat :P. my girlfrens said im flirty. My kids said im strict and scary at the same time adorable. :rolls eyes: . .ijat thinks im short tempered, ben said to ijat im scary (HAHAHAHA…I AM!!!) so can everybody see all the negative sides in me?? Ppl keep on being my fwens all these while. Im confused, if im dat scary..meaning ppl keep being my fwens bcoz they were all pretending?? I gotta admit, sometimes I do feel like everybody’s pretending wit me. Pretend to like me, pretend to care for me, pretend to be nice, pretend to be concern, pretend this, pretend dat. I feel offended at times, but dats nuthin new. I mean, out of millions of hearts why is my heart hv to b special?? Not as if mine can regenerate like adam moreo or Claire bennet in heroes. :rolls eyes:
My fingers pause for few sec juz now before continue on writing this. Not dat Im thinkin on wut to write n wut not, actually I have nuthin more to write. Feel like empty (maybe coz I juz blurt it all out) hoho.. or maybe I really have nuthin more to write. Huhu then suddenly my fingers decided to write abit more (ngaaa) these past few weeks, I was very very very bz. I think in my past history, I never did ever experience this kind of workload. Sheshh… wit event (which we have to struggle before,current and past) wit the whole proposal, being rejected 2-3 times are normal, fixing it, resubmit it, n then during the event…making sure everything goes perfectly like plan. And after, where we need to write reports, if it involve wit budgets…all those bills and receipts need to be presented. Need to show where n how the money were spended. A lot of tedious things to settle dat makes me grumpy. Oh hell yeah. I get grumpy when I gotta do tedious stuff (like making a cake wit those measurement..pfft). I tried to explain to everyone around me. Im very bz. Its not only an excuse, its true, it’s a true excuse. I know lotsa ppl made it all up. Truthfully saying I WAS VERY BZ. Sheshh. I dunno how to tell others bout my bzness nemore. All I ask is to gv me space for me to breathe, let me settle all my work and let me catch up wit my studies. I know Azrul’s mad at me. I always didn’t pick up when he called…heck..i didn’t pick up when EVERYBODY calls.. so sorry dear.. didn’t meant to. These few days, I get to go home. N yet…like Nuar said, Im still bz. This time im bz wit my frens who haven’t met for ages! Yeap..i need time to spend for myself,those who “booked” me up 2 months in advance were still complaining. They still didn’t get the chance to met me. I need a day to stroll alone, enjoying myself…looking thru stuff dat I like..taking my time figuring which goes with wut…which one looks nicer on me.u knw all those girly stuff. I need dat theraphy but yet to have it. i miss dat moment. I didn’t get this yet this semester. I don’t even have the chance to get myself a new pair of shoes!! I always have the time to get another pair of new shoes every time I go back for my study week!!! :sigh:
N now..m back in dungun. Back to battle wit all those papers. Six to be exact. Starting 21st.killer paper…finance..WAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!! rite now im so hungry n my dinner will be around 740pm. Goin str8 to the library afterwards. Need to get focus. need to get those grades daddy wants me to get. Need to beat everybody this sem. Need to shine again. Need to complete my studies with flying colors. Need to get the spot. Need to get the scholarship. A lot of needs..n yet to accomplish. Hope nothing will bring me down…..
:sigh: I Miss My Mummy (!__!)
Ciao~!
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| -= tiredness day two =- |
| 03.16.08 (9:12 am) [edit] |
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Dear bloggy,
Sorry I didn’t get the chance to write to u last nite. I was fast asleep. Damn tired. Well the other nite, I only had 2 hours of sleep. Thanx to the enjoyable yet tragic Korean drama entitled Coffee Prince. Im at episode 10 if im not mistaken. Story bout a girl from poor family who’ll do nething to get some money for her family. So the story begins when the girl decided to pretend as if she was a boy.
And this fooled the hero. He bought the lie for like a few months and they got closed. So when they’r close, the hero tpt dat he’s GAY! Lol dats the funny part but the girl fell for him as well. So this where the conflict started. I mean wit hero’s crushes, his cousins, the mother, the new guy, the other family, the other unknown family.hehehe..yea… the way I explain it are already confusing wait till u watch it. (BTW this has been publish on the national tv..im the last one to watch I think)
So the thing I wanted to tell ere is not bout the Korean drama..its bout WHY I didn’t get so much sleep. And why im hella tired! :roll eyes: hehe neways…after the 10 episode, I decided to go down n had bfast wit Umi. N then about 1230 syarir pick me up n we went for groceries shopping. Went to his house n cooked some spaghetti. Neways after dat I went straight for training. Dats like tiring. Debater on one and a half (lol coz I suppose to go n met ms syikin afterwards) sheshh
So after training went to gadung for some dinner. Fin wit the dinner walk back to my room n carrying 5 liters of water. Aiyooo…damn tiring. I think I;v grown muscles!
But today was great. Started wit a great bfast wit a great company. But not so great when I got an email from momin regarding my audc payment. My institution did not settle it yet.hurmm…wut la them.geez. so then again after dat whole thing I cleared it to momin n also latif. Hope it’ll b great.hope we’r stil running for the competition.sigh.
Neways im getting dizzy now. Beter go n sleep. Owh I skip class again today..juz bcoz I wanna surf..ngahahahha..bes…. =p
Lol…ciao ppl
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| -= grumpy day two =- |
| 03.14.08 (10:00 am) [edit] |
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Dear bloggy,
I had a rough day today. Im sleepy, im tired, im moody, im grumpy, im everything but nice. Started my day wit a lill sleep. I suppose to meet up wit someone last nite but he didn’t turn up. Luckily I have a few meetings at the same spot. How about the meetings u asked?? Sucked!!! First, it was my class meeting. Regarding my trip to Kelantan for my HR project, second meeting’s for debate. Was talkin on how to raise money to go to manila. Those kids decided not to come at first coz they said they’re tired. So I wasn’t tired too?? Geez..so it really got on my nerves so I messaged all of them and said I cancelled the meetings that nite and postpone it later tomorrow.
The kids were freaked out. Lol. So they decided to turn up eventho it’s a bit late. Talked on something till 11pm. In the mean time..i waited for that person who wanted to meet me. But he didn’t showed up. So neways he messaged me later n said dat he fell asleep and that he woke up a lill too late. Duhhh wutever.
So dats y I woke up the next morning feeling grumpy. I feel sorry for puan ainun since I slept half way of her class. N did I mentioned dat I was the most front person facing her?? Hehehe :roll eyes: but luckily she’s very nice. I hope she get a beautiful baby (she’s pregnant btw) I hope its pwetty n kind hearted like her..amin…
So neways, later on today, I was dealing wit ms syikin. Jijah messaged earlier n said she wasn’t happy with out plan on selling sushi…so she wanted to see me n asked every details. Fine. So I went there n talked for quite sometimes. We have few conclusion n guess we’r goin to stick wit it. I was hoping to do the selling since hujan n meet uncle hussein’s coming.but looks like things aren’t goin my way..i mean to sell during their showcase. Lol. So after the meeting…ben came over n stalk me. I had enuff of the day n I was sorta rude towards him. I was tryin to be nice,,,but I guess im not gud at lying.l :roll on the floor laughing: so yea, I sorta iggy him n chased him away. Hahahaha..the hell wit that. Sape suruh kaco aku time kepenatan dan keletihan dan kefucked upan??right??
Owh n one more thing I realize…I cursed a lot now. I mean ntah la…I use bad words now. I dun even like saying those words,oh god plz dun let me be like this. I’d like very much to be very clean in my conversation..(cursing inside works well enuff for me)
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| 03.12.08 (12:39 am) [edit] |
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Dear bloggy,
Had a very long day today. Had my PR test…n yes like wut I expected, I can answer the question…but the big issue here now is…whether its correct or not. LOL
I started my day very early. Thnx to pian he woke me up for subuh (how nice of him aint it..*WINKS*) so neways I studied abit..like almost 3 chapter when I fell asleep =p well not dat bad coz it was a 4 chap test. So then I manage to get up n wear something blue. Coz I rememberd I had this seminar thingy goin on n im the MC
(again). So neways..during the test…I think I completed it in less then half n hour.
I was sleepy so I decided to hv a nap.hahaha.owh I even sms ppl during the time. =p attitude ey?? So I get out about 1130am (coz the lecturer said the earliest we can get out was 1130) so I went straight to the library. Online n checked all the stuff where I barely managed to fin as all the kids were approaching. So I had a meeting wit them regarding generating some money for manila. Great..all r in gud spirit. So we decided to do some selling. So they all agree in meeting later tonite for further discussion. I agreed. So then my (*winks*) pian had already nudge me n asked if I wanted to have lunch, I said yes of coz. So after lunch I went straight to the seminar hall n I realized I didn’t prepare my speech!
Panic time..but everything’s under control. Wanted to test the mic n actually rehearse a bit to get my tone (ngahahha mcm nyanyik plak) so wat happen was when the VIP came I got tense n nervous n uses unproper words (I dun mean as in cursing or nething la deiii) its sort of like informal lah. But no worries…I then save the day wit my jokes. So newaysthe seminar was great. It ended well..everybody was doin their work. Im proud. But my body wasn’t happy wit me. It complaint of tiredness n fatigue.poor body. I shud’v put u in rest. But I didn’t.went straight n washed up my white jumper,white tudung n my white towel. After those vigorous scrubbing and all, ate some bihun wit my rumet aini. So then when m about to relex..syud called saying dat theres a meting at 8.rushed rvrything,
Gosh im damn tired. Even gota force to open them eyes.gues beter smbung esk.nite
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| 03.10.08 (9:00 am) [edit] |
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Dear bloggy,
blluueeekkkkkk….gosh I feel like puking now. Juz had syud’ bday celebration. Had cake fight after eating those big piece of choc cake..God i never know I can eat dat much cake in my life. I mean everybody knows I dislike choc cake.gosh im dizzy n m ready to puke. Seriously. I feel like vomiting really bad.ohh im sick!!!!!
Before I start puking on my bed lets juz finish up wut I wanna write tonite orite??lets see…theres some few things happening. Lets see it in details..like how Sherlock holmes did (ahh lantak la if I spell it wrongly pun) haih…so neways…lets see the chronology
1) I was left alone. Devastated . but I decided to go along wit it. I decided to be strong coz I am strong. I was left in the dark for like few months. I think normal ppl will definitely move on n find something else interesting n forget bout it. But I didn’t. I’ve been train…well I trained myself not to give up on nething easily (unless its cake eating…blueekkk) so neways.. I finally encounter my loneliness, instead I found few interesting ppl who wanted to be friend wit me. Surprisingly they found me interesting… :rolls eye: yea rite
2) So, then when I was about to loose hope on the thing I promise myself not to give up…things again changed up side down. Again make me nervous. I feel like puking n this time I feel sick up to my stomach (like wut I am feeling rite now) I felt dizzy wit things around me. Ppl here n there kept giving me promises. Gzzz thnx ppl but im not used to trust ppl dat easy. Ok u like me…so??doesnt mean I gotta reply rite?? When im juz bout to get comfortable in my own skin..accepting that I am a lone ranger now… memories flashes thru my head. As if someone’s playing a movie n rewinding it for me to view n show “owh there! That’s all ur fault.dats y ur a loner now” its like makin fun of me. I realize, I had hurt a lot of feelings. N the greatest wud be naem. Im so sorry I have to hurt u. 2 years of uncertainty n its goin on forever. I cant even give u the answer u waited after all this while. A sweet yet caring n attractive guy like u shudnt waste ur time on me. Not worth it at all. In the end im juz hurting u..n I believe I’ll keep on hurting.
3) Regrets come and go but decisions have been made. I never experience anything call STRESS or TENTIONS… but surprisingly it happen dis semester. I guess all my 6 subjects contributed as well. But of coz…dat wont be the major issues. I never tot, being fren wit ppl will cost’s so much trouble. Wut to do??not to be fren wit ppl??not to socialize??? *SIGH* gosh him so tense rite now. Tomorrow got a test for PR subject. Hurmm n I didn’t read nething yet.GOD im getting worse! I promised daddy to give my very best..n this is definitely not my very best
4) So now u know I have tensions, headache, sick in my stomach, n so so much more add up together. So theres few guys who confesses rite??finelah..i accept..but the thing is…wuts up when they said wanna feel ur ass n boobs n dat they missed u?? m I some kind of whore??slut??BITCH?? GOSH!!!! I cannot believe it. So u think ur tall, wit nice face n nice hair n ur smart n ur a medic student n u studied overseas n n n… u’v meet my parents u think u can juz easily tell me u missed me n u wanted to FEEL me??WUT THE HECK??? Owh n then few more ppl , they were like angry wit me. I dunno y. one of them said dat some girl (not me) had make him angry…she played him or wutsoever (so dat means im not being played by him??) fine.
The other one said he’s angry coz I told him im not a cheap slut dat u can touch all over and FEEL…fine…
So then again theres another one confessing how he missed me n all n it got irritating when he kept calling like everytime. N when ever he called…he’d be talkin bout how he missed me n all. I mean ok la u like me n all but plz la…mentioning it like 24/7…its VERY IRRITATING!!! *inhale*exhale*
5) Gosh im getting sleepier now. The vomiting had passed. Guess coz I’v bloat out most of it oredy. So neway rite now…im expressing my dissapointment plak. Kenape tah ade garis kaler merah bawah ni..aku eja tk betol kot.tp…ade aku kesah?? Neways…hope n faith…two things I hold on very tightly wherever I go. N rite now im loosen them over one guy that I care n love soooo much. My hopes r slowly slipping down the drain n he should really work on it n pull it back up. Im not disappointed how he handle his life, dat for him to decide…its juz im upset bcoz he make me as if Im a stranger. I dun have the right to be told on wuts happening in this world ke??atleast gv me some hint. If u don’t love me nemore tell me. If u have another girl n think im a looser compare to her…tell me. If u think u hate my attitude…tell me. If u think dat I myself r sickening…let me know. I have my own pride n dignity. Im not a piece of paper u can write on n crumple n throw away when u dun need me nemore. I deserve to be respected, and loved and care and lOADS more.
6) Gosh my hands are aching. I’ll save the other for later.or I wont b able to write nething tomoro.n those ppl shouting outside…*%#& you!!! Dun u know its almost midnite n ppl wanted to rest???!!! GOD!plz strike them to death! Geez now im cursing.neways dats wut happen when ur too tired,I dun think im able to change into my pjs nemore. Looks like im goin to bed wit my shorts n tshirt.FINE.tshirt it is. Guess dats it for now…
CIAO~!
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| 03.07.08 (2:01 pm) [edit] |
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Dear bloggy,
ave u ever felt unwanted?? n then when u can cope wit the whole situation (regardless the moment where ur on process of being ok) and then suddenly something unexpected appear?
*sigh* im gettin more confuse wit my own life. (owh darn i didnt read my OB yet!!ARGHH)i was really down n confuse when suddenlyi'v been left alone. not dat i do nething wrong,or dats wut i believe.
2 months of loneliness..no news no calls no nuthin. dat, i didnt even count the previous situation yet. if i addedd them for sure it'll look worse. neways, in dat two months, i tried so hard not t think bout it. i choose to be optimistic. oh hell, there aint no one in the world who can actually be optimistic for the rest of their life!*rolls eyes* so yea, i tried to also think of the worst case scenario. gosh, only those with experience knows how to cope wit the whole "expecting the unexpected" situation. after goin thru the whole torture for quite sometimes..n i get use to life, again, my world twisted around. the thing dat i throwed away for some period had reappear as if theres nuthin wrong. shesh..its like a time bomb.this situation,dat is.
enough said. when i patch evething up n trying to accept the bad side in life, the world revolve. dah la malas da nk tulis, balik2 isi sme jek.mcm byk nk mengarut td.tp tetibe lak isi berulang.ngahahaha...
okla i gota smbg tdo...solat first n then tdo.
ciao
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| -= IM L.O.S.T =- |
| 03.05.08 (12:43 am) [edit] |
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Dear Bloggy,
i dunno wuts wrong. i dunno where goes wrong n honestly i dunno wut is wrong? difficult aint it??the past few months..i'v been lost. i have no idea wuts goin on wit my life. i dun even understand wuts happening wit me.
i might be very happy among my frens. i laugh n i make jokes. i smiled the whoooole time. but deep down inside..im sad.im lonely...
lotsa frens...yes..i agree but still i need that someone to take care of me.babied me.pamper me.GOD HELP ME. i honestly dunno wuts in ur file dear GOD. but wutever it is..i hope plz do not make things more complicated.
i do not know wut to write.but i need to write sumthing. i need to let everything out. things doesnt goes well in my life. i really hope i can patch everything back to normal. i think i had a very superb life but i guess coz of my own fault i have to bear the consiquences. wut goes around comes around. i know. i understand. but i never know dat my world will be heads over heals.
guess i feel abit better now.hope i'll get better after dis. im goin back to my home tomorrow. gonna go n meet mummy n daddy..
theres nuthin better then seeing n spending time wit ur parents n family. but they'll go back to moscow on the 8th nite. its like hurmmm... very short.but wutever it is...im glad i get to see them.gosh i miss them so much...i...i...im juz lost...
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| -= VC cup, Camera and Modelling! =- |
| 11.29.07 (1:17 am) [edit] |
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Dear bloggy, Gosh i havent write for a damn long time. n i dont think if i still have it...the skills n grammar n everything i mean.. Hurm where to start?? owh yeah.. first thing first, last semester was definitly the most toughest semester ever! not about the subjects. i realize dat all five was damn easy, the only thing i shud'v do the last past 3-4 months was to study constsntly.n yet i didnt,i failed to keep it up.it sux tho when u know its all ur fault.n to make it worst if u can actually do something about it n u didnt. let me start with the aerly semester. i was pointed as the varsity debating captain (hooray for me) lol...i was flattered but dat was when i was set on a very heavy responsibility. its all glamour, u know ppl know u here n there. i kinda like the attention for awhile but then when it comes to debating n controlling almost 20 different character, its not fun nemore. i love debate. i deabted my whole life. n i love the kids, n in case u guys read dis..i love u guys so much n im so proud! altho they first time it was like 25 people but turn out i only have 10 loyal n dedicated debaters.its ok.im still happy wit it. so my new life goes as the new varsity captain. meeting with the head of campus was nuthin.gosh he even offered us to go for worlds on december but too bad i discovered it a little too late. so then i started to call the kids up for training. they were great, some come n go.some quit.i dunno.maybe they cant stand being scolded n doin the never ending research. so neways we didnt have enough training n then it was fasting months n eid break.the time was very tide n i wanted to take them for VC. n i did. i myself got this international invi to sloveina for IDAS. everything was sattle on our side, however, the ministry of edu didnt actually gv us the permission in time.therefore..bye bye slovenia. i went to VC in shah alam instead. gota pull out one team since theres not enuff adjudicators n i only put up 3 teams. i wanted to debate so bad. but oh well u loose some n u gain some rite?? during VC, owh yeah i flirted. didnt i told u guys im a pro?? LOL (up to the stand where he asked me to get laid) hahahahahaha...yeap...dat was hillarious. damn im gud in dat job...n NO i didnt sleep wit him. so neways the kids made me proud. they completed the 5 compulsary round but they didnt break. its ok..we know we lack of practice. we'll try again next yr. they training goes on for 7 days or so. i had fun wit the kids...lets see syarir, jijah, zaty, EG, fara, pian, alia..not to forget wai was there to give us supports..kak farha n kak liza...my bro ash...gosh they'r juz lovely.very supportive.we had fun at nite training...played those silly games up until 3 in the morning n rushed in the morning to catc h our bfast at 8.gud old times. they even been forced into public speaking n im proud. the last day of the training n tourney...we went to seksyen 7 for some big bfast but unfortunate for me i lost my beloved camera. my fault i guess coz i put it on the table n it was hectic n nobody actually sees it. hurmmm i kinda feel bad bout it since its from azhar. i love dat camera so much!!! sobs... but nevermind...gues its not mine nemore so finish with scchool n debate. 2 most important thing in my life n now come to a new perspect. new area in my life. i joined up modelling. haha shocking aint it?? well the story's like this. there was a few agencies back then. i mean b4 the last semester started. i was offered few times. n i was juz not confident enuff. so theres my agent, miss syaz who did very well in gaining my confidence n all. she took me n sign me up wit deballz. i missed few meetings wit my photographer harris but owh well im glad the photoshoot goes well n now im one of their new faces. no job yet tho,..but im counting on it. juz doing dis for fun...extra income options.haha. so check me out at http://suhaila.deballz.com" title="http://suhaila.deballz.com" target="_blank"http://suhaila.deballz.com i wont be goin to russia dis time. dady n mumy's coming back.well, dady's ere oredy, he arrived 2 days ago.got meetings today so mumy gona be ere tomorrow wit my ayah long n his wife..juz bcoz their tickets was today mumy cant come home 2 days earlier...pfft! i dun like them. no, seriously. so neways the day dady arrived,..i slept wit him.i feel like im still his baby girl.slept wit him n wake him up.we even sleep the same way. i mean the way we gota hug something when we're sleeping.hehe i was hugging my teddy when he was huging the boaster.cute aint it??father daughter moment. i talked to him bout stuff. n he even bribe me a hundred bucks juz not to let me tag along wit him when he's hanging out wit his frens!!! lol... gosh u cant blame me..i jjuz miss him dearly.. =) im glad to have dady around altho his skins r peeling off. he played too much snow a week before so he sort of got this frost bite all over his body.sheshhh... well, dats my daddy..there's always a child in him dat drives mummy crazy all the time.ehehe..n now i know where i got my genes! he'll b home soon i guess. n its raining outside. cold. n now azhar's online. shocking coz he told me he'd be in some farm doing some fruit plucking for a week. but im happy to see him around. =) cant wait for him to come home! i gtg now...wanna do some catching up...hehe ttyl ppl! ciao!
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| 06.14.07 (9:39 am) [edit] |
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dear readers,
im a bit sad today coz i'v juz checked out my results.well...its not dat bad..i mean i get a 3 pointer only dat i didnt make it on the deans list.
hurmm dady wasnt hapy bout it.of coz dat means i gota work harder next semester.sheshhh...
neways im sorry i havent updated for few days...almost a week rite since my birthday.i wana uploaded some pic..i did uploaded it on photobucket but didnt get the chance to actually paste it ere.huhu.im bz.lol
well i had a blast of coz during my bday.went shopping earlier n thern had a bbq dinner.which is nice.get to blow out the candles n cut the cake.nisha (a 10 yr old who shares the same bday wit me) also helped me wit the candles (n of coz the cakes) hehe.the next day i went out for some shopping (again) n then i went on a boat again.dis time for morning coffee.i had a blast n yes after the ride i went shopping again.hehe.
yesterday i went to the egyptian embassy.had lunch there wit a bunch of ladies.i get a lucky gift.but the thing dat really make me mad was..they had dis quiz game where i answered correctly at first (it was how many lakes are they in finland) where i answer 55000. n suposedly its correct.but she didnt heard me.n one (*#$ing indian aunt who actually took my answer n well yeah she heard it.she was givin me dat owh-i-answer-it-correctly look at me.sheshhh..im sooo pissed!n then the egyptian offer for some temporary tatoo. i tot it was wit mehendi but actually no.its with some ink.sheshh n it stain my pants which i accidently touch while m taking pictures.owh well...the pants r in the pail now.waitin for me to scrub it off.owh well...
pm will be coming next week...where i'll definitly go n meet him.hehe the thing is...i didnt bring my baju kurung along.urgghhhh...so i guess someone gota land it to me :D
gotta go now ppl...will upload the pics soon,...or abit later...hehe CIAO~!!!
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| -= happy birthday to me =- |
| 06.01.07 (10:14 am) [edit] |
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!
weeee...im 20 today.sheshh i know i shudnt be hapy coz im a year older but i have to be thankful since im alive for 20 yrs.given a beautiful family,gud fwens...gud life..neva can ask for more.i'v been given chances to study...to make a beter living in the future n it all thnks to my family.i wont be at where i am rite now if its not for them.my fwen...my bestest fwens azhar,syeera,nurul
not to forget naem,Y,kak farha,syud n so so much more..i thnk you guys for supporting me.i mean guidin me to the right track again n again.i know i always slip.but..dats r wut fwens for rite???scratch each others back. ;)
went shopping today.sorry didnt take ne photoes.was damn sleepy.gota wake up early n take pictures at the studio.they wana make me those russian id.i already send my pics which had been edited but they rejected coz its too pwety! lol... :rolls eye: actually coz i was showing my teeth.wat the heck???sheshhh so neways...mumy get me 2 new shirt..huhu sexy ones!lol..
neways...thnx everybody who wishes me bday...i realy apreciate it =) love u guys
n my bday resolution??? DIET!! haha everybody's been complaining.lol..so loose some wight... may the force be wit me.. ;) hihi
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| -= dungeon debaters =- |
| 05.28.07 (11:36 pm) [edit] |
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gud day everyone.u know my university organizes a debate tournament.called piala sultan zainal abidin or the sultan zainal abidin trophy.its a tradition dats been held in uitm terengganu for the past 7 years.the malay debaters did very well...they're still holdin on the trophy and as for the english team,we'r not dat fortunate.we lost to university pahang for the second time.meaning we fail to grab it from the pahang people.its ok,lots of our debaters were not around.me for example have to leave for russia on the 14th n the tourney started 3 days after.of coz im soooooo sad when i cant joined up.the only tourney that's been held in my own place.
so yesterday ppl keep on congratulating us on the wining part but then i'v been told again by my senior dat we'v been condamned in our yahoo group post.we'v been criticised by a senior i supose.no real name there.so neways, it hurts.but they cannot expect us freshie debaters (altho im a senior now i still think im a freshie) dat we'r up to our senior level who've been flying all over the wolrd to compete at the world level.its not dat i cant accept the critics dear readers, i know we have to swollow even is its bitter.i do n already did.but comparing the jrs n the srs are not the way.we go thru tourneys, win or lose is another diff story.the journey dat counts.dat'll make us wiser n better.but unfortunately some ppl dun know bout being a true debater!
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| -= Asian festival =- |
| 05.27.07 (8:36 am) [edit] |
hello guys. i was so damn exhausted yesterday so i didnt get the chance to write bout the asian thingy i was telling u guys about.so yea...it was fun..
i helped the embassy to sell those batik kaftans...n no..i didnt get a pic while m selling it.sheshhh.i was wearing a baby blue kimono top.hehe.we were selling our specialties...nasi lemak wit spicy prawn n rendang chicken.yum! it was sold out in like 2 hours! ;)
so neways, yesterday also i've been attacked by the lill kids.i dunno where they come from. they linger around me n started to hug me when the auction started.haha.they're like extra2 frendly! hehe. i get to snap lotsa japanese n korean pic.i mean the people since they'r the only ppl who wears their special attire. owh n there's this one japanese kid who tot im da mother.hahaha so cute.the name is yuki.sooo cute.hehe.
the thingy ended at 4 sumthin n i was damn exhausted.prayed my zohor prayer n then i go straight to bed for a nap.mumy wakes me up at 8.huhu.thnked God maghrib here is at 9.30.so yeah..i was exhausted.n today went to ashan for some groceries.it was tiring.lotsa ppl there.n plus the heat makes it even worse!sheshhhh!
well dats all for now..coz m havin a headache.need to lay down for a while.ciao~!!
 everybody meet YUKI!!
 wit my pal Azie
 juz showin off my kimono top..hehe
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| -= Here I am =- |
| 05.25.07 (11:25 am) [edit] |
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dear readers,
i'd like to apologize to all of u.not dat i make any mistakes its juz dat i know i should've write more often. but wut to do... i have no easy internet excess.
the gud thing is my collegge have provide us wit wifi(about time :roll eyes: )
so anyways, im in moscow now wit my parents.wuts dat?? taking medic ere??no no no...how i wish ur thoughts are rite.. :rolls eyes:
my dad has been posted ere last year. so basicly my home is..umm Russia! haha
im working on my blog rite now. a lot to come u see. more writing definitly!
n of coz..my latest photos!
as u can see (or not) i've changed my colors.i'm trying to change my header as well...but still figuring out wut the purrfect image to put on there since it'll represent me.hehe. ;)
well i better off to bed now. i wanted to get an early start tomorrow n take great pictures. there'll be an asian fair. malaysian embassy gonna sell their delicacies n yes i'll be helping out.hehe.hope m gona have a great time tomorrow...well i'll make sure i will. will write more later. nite-nite!
owh yeah forgot my signature...CIAO~!!!
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| -= The New Beginnning =- |
| 03.03.07 (5:08 pm) [edit] |
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Greetings everybody...
its been awhile since the last time...i know..
wut to do??that pathetic terengganu have no net access.i'v been torture for nearly 3 semesters...another 3 wont kill me.the thing is people, the boys college already have those wifi connection..wuts up wit dat??geezz!
neways, i havent opened my blog acc for only god knows how long.i'v stopped for a while actually.things happen u know.i love writing, i really do. recently, i wrote a play for my uni. its a drama competition.the training and all are still going on.trying to perfect it in every aspect.i like it.i mean writing plays.got 2 dramas this sem, one my english play n the other one my arabic.wish me gud luck wit those ok?
so, while i was checking my blog rite, of coz there were comments. c'mon, acey im so sorry i pissed u off. the thing is..i dont mean to.i juz have no idea who u r n ur being damn secretive.fine.u'v stopped emailing me neways.n got another coment from god knows who also...asking me to use proper english...wut the heck.dis is MY BLOG so i'll write wut ever i like..owh n one more..another person wrote to me saying he dun like reading my blog.making him puke.so???like i care.i mean if u dont like wut read then dont! as simple as dat.geez...ppl these days.cant u juz read n dont criticise ppl??
*inhale* enuff of this nonesense.im trying to be active again.i have a lot of thing to write actually but my batery are not allowing.and my grandmother's calling me for breakfast.sheshhh..i need to rebuilt my blog again.make it all pretty again.hehe
aite then ppl.i think i need to run now.thnx for those who actually read my writing.i appreciate it. =)
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| -= its been a while =- |
| 05.31.06 (8:17 pm) [edit] |
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Good morning everybody, i've checked my email early dis morning n i got a stranger name Acey Don who keep on emailling me. seriously people i do not know who dis is. but wutever it is..thnk you for wanting to be my fren.i appreciate it but somehow he's being secretive..VERY secretive...i have no idea who he is n all (ok i know he's from JB, was in kl wit his adopteed parents, working now but dunno wut job, he got a motorcycle which i dun even care, n he' a guy who'v been mentioning bout liking my smile!)sheshhh such a brief discription how do i supose to know??? i mean i dun do those critical thinking ey?? sheshh ok ok lets get on wit this..n dis morning too i got 2 mystery comments from i dunno who. sheshh i guess they both r a he...or maybe its d same person but i do not know since he didnt left his name or even nick name.ok fine.so people starts playing mystery game wit me now??pfft!! i always wana be like sherlock holmes but..dis is a broadband world! where do i supose to start??sheshhh! neways...its 11.20 am n i havent had my breakfast yet..one word...STARVING!!!! lol...ok dat wasnt very nice but do i even care???hmmm....never mind me. :) hmmm last 29.5.06 was my very first anniversary wit my bie azhar.im so glad we'r together. but too bad dat sexy thing wasnt around.but he promised to be back in another 6 months.yea..ok dats quite long but i cant juz tell him to come home asap...i mean hello...its not negri sembilan to kl nemore it sydney to malaysia!!! sheshhh... n yes i've been missing him dearly... :( my birthday's approaching really really soon..infact! its tomorrow! :) im all excited! syera, ucci n kotal wants to treat me dis coming saturday..n naem on monday.dats really nice of them.n plus dat means PRESENTSSSS!!! hehehe..owh n did i mention fauzie wanted to send me his too! oh n azhar...he got me an ipod nano! 3 cute lill stuff animals n a jumper of his uni.which is nice.heheh im soo excited!!! sheshhh but when i think of my sem break...which's getting towards the end (ok fine another month but dat doesnt happy me) i wanna wake up late like every morning i did!! pffttt!!!but enough of dat..dat already spoils my mood... sheshhh im starving!!! i really need to get off.kerol's sending my lappy over tonite.yeah dat stupid brontok was in it...my lappy was damn slow...sheshhh...n i think im getting a new webbie!! yippieeeee!!! well...the food's calling me...i REALLY gotta run...so CIAO~!!! p/s: for d person who always leave me dat sweet comment...do leave ur name...or ur nick name..atleast i can call u something..rite??
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| what hurts the most |
| 05.09.06 (12:13 am) [edit] |
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I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do
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| im home... |
| 05.09.06 (12:06 am) [edit] |
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Its been awhile since the last time i wrote ere...
its a bit torture for me for the 1st time...i mean the first few weeks..i brought up my diary along..but its nuthin fun like blogging..(i mean when typing..its easier n plus i dun hv pretty hand writings :P)
i know u guys must b wondering where did i go for such a long period.well i got submitted in one of the local universities..praise to God..i finally have a place to study.altho the courses dat been provided is not my choice..im happy dat i manage to fin up one semester...
my finals were ok i guess...its juz my accounting paper's a bit tough...one..i have no basic...second..its totally new format...3rd i never like it much *sigh* but wut done is done.theres no use for me to whine...all is left to do is pray to God dat i do less mistakes...(ameen)
boo's being away for almost 3-4 months now..our anniversary's approaching...(as well as my bday)
my first aniversary but we didnt get the chance to celebrate it together...*sigh*
called syera up last nite...it was chaos.she was telling me how she have a damn big family prob..i agree..it is big alrite...we went thru the whole nite..talkin bout feelings,family,frens,cru shes,...
we cried we laughed...geez...i can never ask for somebody new to substitute syera..she's one great fren...my bestest fren ever!i love her so much!
well i guess dats about it...lotsa things to write..lotsa stuff goin on...but i dunno wat to write nemore...have a blast u guys...ciao~!
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| 01.02.06 (6:50 am) [edit] |
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:( pfftt!!! school's starting tomorrow!! urghhhh after those 2 months of gud kicking back...i DUN WANNA GO BACKKKKK!!!huhuhu...but...but..i promise myself n the ppl around me to be good this year. i want to accomplish wut everybody think i cant! hurmm..i know its gonna b hard...wit me no dicipline n all..but im gonna try my best...yes i will...n i am! :) emmm..well aint gonna update dis blog often tho...(like i did for the past 2 months :rolls: ) ehehhehehe..neways...i gtg...the pc gotta be put outside...no more net in my room..or else...wont b touching my books for sure!!! i'll bring back dat nerdy me 3 years ago..muahahhaha...funny aint it?? when i struggle while havin fun (kinda struggle)..i didnt get a satisfying result on d other hand..when i lay back carefree n doin nuthin..i get like...a very shocking gud result...*sigh*...wait2 or was it the other way around??hahaha....wutever. :lol: ok dats bizarre...neways...aint gonna take any risk to try wchich one which nemore..rite now...i wanna bring dat old smudgy sue...careless wit wuts goin on here n there...nuthin but books...
i hope....ciao!
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:( pfftt!!! school's starting tomorrow!! urghhhh after those 2 months of gud kicking back...i DUN WANNA GO BACKKKKK!!!huhuhu...but...but..i promise myself n the ppl around me to be good this year. i want to accomplish wut everybody think i cant! hurmm..i know its gonna b hard...wit me no dicipline n all..but im gonna try my best...yes i will...n i am! :) emmm..well aint gonna update dis blog often tho...(like i did for the past 2 months :rolls: ) ehehhehehe..neways...i gtg...the pc gotta be put outside...no more net in my room..or else...wont b touching my books for sure!!! i'll bring back dat nerdy me 3 years ago..muahahhaha...funny aint it?? when i struggle while havin fun (kinda struggle)..i didnt get a satisfying result on d other hand..when i lay back carefree n doin nuthin..i get like...a very shocking gud result...*sigh*...wait2 or was it the other way around??hahaha....wutever. :lol: ok dats bizarre...neways...aint gonna take any risk to try wchich one which nemore..rite now...i wanna bring dat old smudgy sue...careless wit wuts goin on here n there...nuthin but books...
i hope....ciao!
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(1)Your gender: Female
(2) Straight/gay/bi?: Straight
(3) Single?: Taken
(4) Want to be?: Very Rich
(5) Your birth day: June 2nd, 1987
(6) Age you act: Like a mak cik
(7) Age you wish you were: 7
(8) Your height: 5' 4
(9) The color of your eyes: dark brown
(10) Happy with it?:Yeah
(11) The color of your hair: dark brown
(12) Happy with it?: Yeah
(13) Left/right/ambidextrous?: Right
(14) Your living arrangement?: I'm Alive ..(o.0)
(27) Your family: mummy, daddy n big sis
(29) What's your job: Crapping, whinning, complaining, bitching :twisted:
(30) Piercings?: One on each ears
(31) Tattoos?: None
(32) Obsessions?: Shoes
(35) Do you speak another language?: yeap
(36) Have a favorite quote?: Nope
(37) Do you have a web page?: Yeap
DEEP THOUGHTS about life and you in it
(38) Do you live in the moment?: yeap
(39) Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: yeap
(40) Do you have any secrets?: like DUHHH
(41) Do you hate yourself?: Always
(43) Do you have any bad habits?: Sarcasm, sinical, drink too much ribena
(44) What is the compliment you get most from people?: let say 'i dun hve to tell u or i'll be too proud' :P
(45) If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: The unlove freak
(46) What's your biggest fear?: My Lord
(47) Can you sing?: yeah.. but then it'll be raining
(48) Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: Yeap a few times
(49) Are you a loner?: hurmmm in some part of me
(51) If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: hell yeah.. cuz i have a lotsa secret dat i kept so dat 'i' can dig my secret...
(52) Are you a daredevil?: Not really..ok ok sometimes
(53) Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: IM FAT!! enuff said
(54) Are you passive or aggressive?: both :wink:
(55) Have you got a car?: Nope.Im not rich
(56) What is your greatest strength and weakness? My Kindness n im too soft hearted...easilt touched *sigh*
(57) If you could change one thing about yourself?: EVERYTHING
(58) There are three wells, love, beauty and creativity, which one do you choose?: Can i have all three??
(59) How do you vent?: blogging, writting, silent treatment
(60) Do you think you are emotionally strong?: i dun think so
(62) Do you think life has been good so far?: i guess its ok *sigh*
(63) What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: regret now n learn or suffer later
(64) What do you like the most about your personality?: Sense of humor..the talkativeness
(65) And least?: My anger
(66) Do you think you are good looking?: Nope, so wut if im not??!
(67) Are you confident?: Think so
(68) What is the fictional character you're most like?: Ayashi No Ceres
(70) Are you perceived wrongly?: sometimes
DO YOU...
(71) Smoke?: HELL NO!!~
(72) Do drugs?: HELL NO
(73) Read the newspaper?: HELL YEAHH.. da must thing to do in a day
(74) Pray?: 5 times a day
(75) Go to church? nope... am Moslem visited it tho
(76) Talk to strangers who IM you?: sumtimes but dun like it much
(77) Sleep with stuffed animals?: Yeap
(78) Take walks in the rain?: yeah.. luv it
(79) Talk to people that hate you : yeah n being sinical
(80) Drive?: Yeap
(81) Like to drive fast?: eheee got nervous when im behind the wheel :P :roll:
HAVE YOU EVER...
(82) Liked your voice? yea..actually its pretty ok
(83) Hurt yourself?: yeah..
(84) Been out of the country?: Yeap
(85) Eaten something that made other people sick?: huhu yea h
(86) Burped?: Hasn't everyone?
(87) Been unfaithful?: nope
(88) Been in love?: yeap
(89) Done drugs?: Nope
(90) Gone skinny dipping?: Yeap
(92) Had a surgery?: Nope
(93) Ran away from home?: Nope
(94) Played strip poker: Nope
(95) Gotten beaten up?: Yeah
(97) Been picked on?: Yeah
(98) Been on stage?: Yea, humiliating myself...ppffftttt!!
(99) Been so drunk that you know you're supposed to go out on a date with someone, but you can't remember with who or when and that you faint when you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, not to mention your breath?: Nope
(100) Slept outdoors?: Yeah n my back was aching
(101) Thought about suicide?: Yeah..lotsa times
(102) Pulled an all-nighter?: nope
(103) If yes, what is your record?: I said no
(105) Talked on the phone all night?: yeap
(106) Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex?: Like Duhhh..of coz
(107) Slept all day?: yeap
(108) Killed someone?: nope,wanted to
(109) Made out with a stranger?: nope
(110) Had sex with a stranger?: nope
(111) Thought you're going crazy?: yeap
(112) Kissed the same sex?: yeah
(113) Done anything sexual with the same sex? nope
(114) Been betrayed? yeap...many times
(115) Had a dream that came true?: yeap... jus a lil
(116) Broken the law?: yeap.. for a good reason
(117) Met a famous person?: lots of time but i didnt care much
(118) Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: yeah a lamb..im sorry grandpa
(146) Stolen anything?: when i was little
(147) Been on radio/TV.?: tv yeah... radio nah
(148) Been in a mosh-pit?: yuck no
(149) Had a nervous breakdown?: hell yeah
(150) Considered religious vocation?: errrr...
(151) Been criticized about your sexual performance?: WTH??
(152) Bungee jumped?: nope, wanted to
(153) Had a dream that kept coming back?: yeap
CLOTHES and other fashion
(154) Shoe brand?: Nuthin specific
(155) and of clothing?: Nuthin specific
(156) Cologne/perfume?: Addict by Dior
(157) What are you normally wearing to school/work?: school uniform
(159) Wear hats?: i wear scarf larh
(161) Wear make-up?: Ewwwww NO!
(162) Favorite place to shop?: anywhere, everywhere :P
(163) Favorite article of clothing?: None
(164) Are you trendy?: huhu yeah..sorta
(165) Would you rather wear a uniform to school?: i AM wearing uniform to school
BELIEFS
(166) Believe in life on other planets?: yeah,...other martians somewhere
(167) Miracles?: yes
(168) Astrology?: not really..but its kinda fun
(169) Magic?: interesting
(170) God?: oh yes i do
(171) Satan?: yes. they astray da human on a wrong side
(172) Santa?: nope
(173) Ghosts?: yes
(174) Luck?: yes
(175) Love at first sight?: yeah
(176) Yin and Yang?: yeap
(177) Witches?: nope
(178) bunny?: those long ears, soft fur, cuddly thing...they exist rite??
(179) Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: Yeah. as long as theres teamwork between 2 heart
(180) Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?: im not irish so no
(181) Do you wish on stars?: YEap
LOVE, and all that
(182) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title?: nope
(183) Do you remember your first love?: Yeah
(184) Still love him/her?: nope
(185) Do you consider love a mistake?: sometimes
(186) What do you find romantic?: a simple kiss on d forehead n a tight hug
(187) Turn-on?: tall, brain, looks,pretty smile
(188) Turn-off?: bad attitude, snob, stuck up :x
(189) Do you base your judgment on looks alone: yea i guess, our eyes r the 1st judge
(200) If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel?: Running Away n go home
(201) Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going "blind"?: Knowing someone but blind dates r thrilling
(202) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out?: Yeah
(203) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?: urm.. nope
(204) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: y ask me?? ask them
(205) What is best about the opposite sex?: they're cute :P
(206) What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: when they starts to act like a jerk!
(207) What's the last present someone gave you? Nobody gave me nething
(208) Are you in love?: yea
(209) Do you consider your significant other hot?: huhu he SIZZLES!
(210) What would you do if you were walking down the street and saw some hot guy/girl standing on the sidewalk?: do nothing... so wat if they'r hot?
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
(211) That haunted you?: my past
(212) You wanted to kill?: myself
(213) That you laughed at?: a tv show
(214) That laughed at you?: my sis
(215) That turned you on?: Azhar
(216) You went shopping with?: my mom n my sis n my dad
(217) That broke your heart?: Lotsa people
(218) To disappoint you?: myself
(219) To ask you out?: a bunch of guys i dun even know
(220) To make you cry?: myself n everything
(221) To brighten up your day?: :)
(222) That you thought about?: mylife, myself, the future
(223) You saw a movie with? myself
(224) You talked to on the phone?: mummy
(225) You talked to through IM?: Azhar
(226) You saw?: the cooked nuggets
(227) You lost?: Myself
(229) You thought was completely insane?: Myself
(230) You wanted to be?: Nebody else but me
(231) You told off?: nobody
(232) You trusted?: my family, my bes frens n swetheart
(233) You turned down?: lotsa people
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU
(234) Smiled?: Last nite
(235) Laughed?: Last nite
(236) Cried?: last 2 nites
(237) Bought something?: Envelope
(239) Were sarcastic?: Yesterday
(240) hugged someone?: Yesterday
(241) Talked to an ex?: i dun talk to my ex
(242) Watched your fave movie?: long long time
(243) Had a nightmare?: All the time
(245) Talked on the phone?:yesterday
(246) Listened to the radio?: Dis morning
(247) Watched TV?: just now
(248) Went out?: yesterday
(249) Helped someone?: cant remember
(250) Were mean?: i was mean n i still am
(251) Sang?: Dis morning
(252) Saw a movie in a theater?: havent been there for quite sometimes
(253) Said "I love you"?: Last nite
(254) Missed someone?: missed him like HELL!! mummy n daddy :(
(255) Fought with a family member?: Cant remember
(256) Fought with a friend?: Cant remember
(257) Had a serious conversation?: 2 nite ago
(258) Got drunk?: never did
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.:About Me:.
Name: [ Siti Suhaila Kamaruddin ]
Gender: [ Female ]
D.O.B: [ June 2nd 1987 ]
Age: [ 21 yrs old]
Hair colour: [ Dark Brown ]
Horoscope: [ Gemini ]
Hair: [ Wavy ]
Eye colour: [ Cinnamon ]
Right or left handed: [ Righty ]
Siblings: [ 2 ]
Family: [ Kamaruddin(daddy), Ezana(mummy) & Deanna(muh HOT sis!) ]
School: [ Mara University of Technology ]
Ethnicity: [ Im part malay n part chinese...=P ]
Religion: [Muslim ]
Email : [ Sue_coolgal@yahoo.com ]
Last 4 digits of ur no: [ 9240 ]
Hobbies: [ SHOPPING!! woho...hehe swimming basicly...everything dats gota do wit water... ]
When's ur bedtime: [ Usually 2 a.m ]
Do u hav a car: [ Nope ]
Guy In Your Dreams: [ johnny depp ]
Surname: [ Kamaruddin ]
Location: [ Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia ]
College: [ more like University ]
-=Have I=-
Tried smoking: [ Nope ]
Drink alc0h0l: [ Nope, Never ]
Been hurt emotionally: [ Who doesnt?? ]
Kept a secret from anyone: [ No Im an open book...DUHHH ]
Been on stage: [ Yeap ]
-=Favourites=-
Color : [ Blue, Black, White, n Red ]
Food: [ Mummy's cook!! YUMM!]
Drinks: [ Ribena ]
Number: [ 2 n 8 ]
Looney toons: [ Silvester ]
Sports: [ Swim ]
Song : [ Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - ur guardian angel ]
Movie: [ Forrest gump, greenmiles n LOTR the trilogy ]
Subject: [ English ]
-=Do I believe in=-
Love?: [ Yap2.. but not so sure of it ]
Faith: [ Definitely ]
Urself: [ always do ]
Ghosts: [ The Quran did mention it ]
Angels: [ More like malaikat ]
-=Love life
Haf a secret admirer: [ If i know it wont b a secret nemore..DUHH ]
Do u wanna get married?: [ Duhh ]
Do u plan on having kids?: [ Love kids!! ]
How old u wanna be when u get married: [ 25 ]
How old u wanna be when u haf ur first child: [ When ever it feels rite ]
How many kids do u want: [ Planning on 2 pairs ]
Would u hav kids before marriage: [ Heck NO!! ]
Do u haf a crush: [ Now, At the moment..^_^Uu]
What do u wan most in a relationship: [ Sincerity n loyalty ]
Believe In LOve At First Sight? : [ I do.. ]
-=Pick Either one or Both=-
Pink or black: [ Black ]
Kiss or hug: [ Both ]
Summer or winter: [ Winter ]
Sunny or rainy: [ Sunny ]
Chocolate or vanilla: [ Vanilla ]
Hanging out or chilling: [ Chilling ]
Music or tv: [ Both ]
Nite or day: [ Nite ]
Guys or girls: [ GUYS! ]
Sleepin or eatin: [ Eating..hehe ]
Love or lust: [ Love ]
Silver or gold: [ Silver ]
Sunset or sunrise: [ Sunset ]
On phone or in person: [ Both ]
Diamonds or pearls: [ Diamond ]
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